I just wanted to throw that in there from the start okay! I know I've been stirred to share a message laid on my heart...but I'm not quite sure of its direction as I type letters into the formation of words that will become the sentences you read...but hey, spontaneity is always good in small doses right...so here goes!
So, most people are aware we are in the process of selling our current home and buying a bigger house in a new area. It has been a prayer point for a few years now, with the reality of it all happening just kind of overwhelming us in awe. I don't quite know why I'm so emotional about our time finally coming to move on and upwards as they say...I mean, when you pray for something, you should know it will happen right...? But I sit here today so thankful and humbled at His goodness over us. I'm always so surprised God would want to do anything good for me if I'm truly honest.
But He does, and here we are almost ready to exchange contracts in our moving process.
This has seen me de-clutter and sort through ALOT of "stuff!" Quite abit of stuff we've got rid of - whether it be to the rubbish dump, chairty shops, friends or others who could benefit from it, some stuff we've laughed at through memories of young love, dodgy haircuts, fun days out, naughty romantic gestures and scribbles that represent our children growing up and learning how to draw and write - these bits are to be treasured of course....and then there's the stuff that will be kept and used straight out in our new home. The stuff that will be kept, now rests wrapped neatly in boxes...boxes now brown taped together, stacked against walls.
My home of ten years, will very soon belong to someone else. And the process of slowly detaching myself from it has begun.
But it is hard...despite the fact that no ornaments or photos adorn our shelves and walls, that no plants blossom on the window sills and no CDs or DVDs rest in their now broken, ready to be dumped racks....this place has my heart. I look around at the bare-ness, and it still feels like home. One thing I had to ensure I kept out, are my two big vases, which still stand - one on the living room mantle piece and the other in the kitchen window filled with pretty flowers. Flowers make me smile, they make my heart swell and my mood brighten.
I am coming to realise that in this life on earth, many things are just shells. A house is just a shell...a shell we fill with "stuff" to make it personalised, more comfortable and liveable. But if you were to come to my home today, in all its bareness, I feel secure in saying we'd have a nice time...I'd make a fresh pot of tea, and we'd snuggle each in our own chair and chat the time away.
If my kids happen to be here, they'd fill the air with laughter, play and squabbles. I think you'd leave having felt at home despite the bareness.
Because its not the stuff that makes a home a home...it's the life happening within it. And my friends, there's a whole lot of life in these walls. Including the presence of an amazing God who fills the atmosphere with His spirit.
The same can be said of us right?! It's not what you see on the outside that makes me a fixture in your life...it's from knowing the true inner Stacey that you want me as a friend I think....I know that if you're here, having tea, that's what I like about you....the INNER you! The part of you that makes you, you! The rest is just a shell...a shell that needs to be cared for, well looked after for sure....but it doesn't contribute to your soul...the you who goes out of your way to share an encouragement, a kind word, a gesture that someone else has missed....YOU! The you that Jesus wants as friend too. The you that God so loves, more than you can ever fathom.
Please don't hide behind your shell. Please don't let your shell determine how much life there is around you. Please don't make your shell fake so the real you can't shine out. Please let your shell just be a thin layer of who and what you are and have to share with those in your life.
So, for now...My family and I are living in our home of a decade....with boxes around us full of our stuff. Stuff that makes life nicer, but doesn't bring life into our walls. And whilst I know, once we are in our new house...this stuff will help us to settle in and make it our own....I have a security in my heart that with God leading the way, and seven Omokaros running wild....life will be there...life will settle us and our new shell will soon become home.
Be Blessed :-)
Oh....and sorry for the random rambling!!!