Sound easy? Hmmmm, more of a challenge really, but one I'm ready to take again! So here goes...
Belong: To fit into a group naturally; to be properly or suitably placed.
For along time, I so wanted to belong.
Quietly watching...them....all with their talents, their 2.4 children, happy bank accounts and cars that proved it. Perfect little lives where they picked carefully who they allowed in their circles.
"Not good enough...they look down on you....you just don't belong Stacey" the thoughts raged through my mind.
Trying so hard to be like them, at times I felt like a duck franctically kicking its feet under water.
Then...then an encounter with Him...truth over lies...present over perfect...realising my worth was placed in much higher places...understanding that the real me did belong....exactly where He placed me. Not in a place where I had to apologise for being in a mixed race marriage, feel ashamed of being a mummy of five beautiful children, feel insecure that my size 16 body didn't match their ideas of perfect, worry that my humble home and practical car weren't enough.
But instead a place of peace. A place of kindness, love, true friendship, compassion, wisdom and acceptance.
Because the truth...the deep, deep truth is this....if you have to work hard at trying to belong, then my friend...you're not in the right place. To belong, is to, as online dictionary.com tells us; to fit into a group naturally. No hiding, no trying, just being....that's what it feels to belong.
I'm so grateful God met with me at a new level during the 2012 women's REAL conference at our home church. This is where my encounter took place...and my life hasn't been the same since. It's been better on so many levels, and breakthrough in many areas has happened for our family, in my ministry life and especially in my friendships.
I've realised no-one has a perfect life, whatever car they drive or number of children they have. That my thoughts weren't necessarily in line with how others felt about me, that perhaps my thinkings spoke more about my insecurities as opposed to what people thought and how their lives really were.
But, I've also understood that us humans are a race continually striving to be better...appear perfect...belong in the crowd, at whatever cost. But I don't want that...I became tired of that a long time ago, and today I embrace knowing that with my Jesus by my side, I do belong...and I always have!
Be Blessed :-)